A Little Leak of Faith

My contract ends on Nov 14^th with the company that I'm currently working for and Jorma still doesn't have a start date for his new position. The company that he's going to be working for sounds like it's a great place to work and we are excited about the prospect of new opportunity. Because we don't yet know when he's going to actually start though, it feels like it did when we were waiting day by day for Everdream to call us and let him know the his start date with them. Because we got burned with the Everdream deal we both can't help but be nervous about the new company, as we wait for official news.
I think we both expected to feel a sort of relief once he officially got the position at this new company, but because we were burned by the "hurry up and wait" before, there's no deep sigh of relief for us... yet. It's only been two weeks since he interviewed and they were supposed to get him the official offer letter with a day to begin working. The suspense is killing me.
Each time I get a new email in my inbox at work, I keep thinking that they've contacted him and he's got news. Each time my cell phone or the extension at my desk rings, my heart swells with hope. I'm just so tired of being disappointed.
I haven't written much about the whole unemployment thing on the blog because it's just so damn hard to write about. Each time I start to write an entry I'm so overwhelmed by the stress of the whole thing, that I just end up sounding like I'm wallowing in self pity. So I delete my entry and writing nothing at all. But it's been hard. It's been hard on Jorma especially, but also hard on the kids and hard on me.
Luckily during this time, we've had lots of support from friends and family, some of which have gone further than "out of their way" to help us with the networking or searching that's so essential to the job search. And although in the end, the opportunity that's currently on the table is one that we found ourselves, you have no idea, how deeply appreciative I am of everyone that's helped us. If even your version of "helping" consisted of a lecture of the importance of education.
I'll keep everyone posted on new events as we know. If you are into prayers what we need now isn't the perfect opportunity, it's a prayer that the HR  member that works for the perfect opportunity will return his phone calls, so we can take a big sigh of relief.